John O'Donohue's Blessing for One who is Exhausted is particularly apt for me at this point. I slumped in the chair of my spiritual director's office last week and admitted I was bone weary. Work has sprouted one too many unanticipated projects this semester, and I feel like I rush through my days, head down, focussed on what is in front of me and nothing more, then fall into bed and do it again. O'Donohue nudges me into the Examen I wonder if I'm too tired to make: “Take refuge in your senses, open up/To all the small miracles you rushed through.”
I sometimes wonder if I close off the possibility of tiny miracles, unable or unwilling to pick up on the clues that surround me daily (except perhaps when they are on the sidewalk in front of me).
I'm reflecting about rushing through miracles and what it might take to still myself long enough to recognize them at This Ignatian Life, and so today trying to practice being aware sometime before my midnight Examen. Every time I looked up from my desk I peeked out the window and admired the snow, surprised and delighted again and again by the gorgeous flakes.
Oh Michelle, that you can see and express this as you have, speaks volumes. I'm thinking that more miracles come through than you might think, but I also believe you are onto something about the headlong rush.
ReplyDeleteYour posts are so deeply generous - thank you.
I'm thinking that if you don't rush through them the first time, you get to enjoy them twice. In the moment and in the Examen....
DeleteGrateful for your gracious and generous companionship on this road!
My coworker offered me a cup of coffee today (see blog). Little traces of human companionship are, I think, tiny miracles. (Of course there are times when one aches for solitude!)
ReplyDeleteThe tendrils that tie us to each other, even in solitude!
DeleteThank you for this post and the one on The Ignatian Life. Both challenge us to be more mindful.
ReplyDelete....slowly, slowly, as my spiritual director is wont to say!
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